Changing and Rearranging
Okay, so here’s the latest scoop on chemo stuff. I saw the oncologist yesterday and he is going to put me on the pill. But, as always, there’s positive and negative (isn’t that how life is?).
The positive: No more pump! That’s huge. That thing was so annoying. I won’t miss it at all. Also, praise God for good insurance. I’ll be taking six pills a day for six, fourteen-day cycles and the pills are upwards of a thousand dollars a day. With my insurance I’ll pay $90 for a three-month supply.
The negative: As I mentioned, I’ll be taking six pills a day for fourteen days (six cycles of this) then get a week off. That’s three weeks. This means the IV treatment (which I’ll still be undergoing . . . for now) will be on a three-week cycle rather than the two-week cycle that it’s currently on. So that pushes everything back. Rather than finishing up chemo October 21 I’ll now be finishing up November 26. Bummer. That means the surgery to reverse the ostomy won’t take place until probably late December/early January rather than November. Bummer again.
You know what all this changing and rearranging reminds me of? We make our plans but God is the one who directs our paths. More and more I’m learning (slowly . . . hey, I have a thick head) that God is in charge here. He’s calling the shots, setting the schedule, making the plans. Not me. Not the oncologist. Not the surgeon. My challenge is to submit to His timing and not fight it. He knows what’s best (note to self: read that again).
With chemo round number 7 on Wednesday I’m gearing up and preparing myself for another several days of feeling ill. But then I’m over the half-way mark and only have five more!