God is for Me
I have a doctor appointment this afternoon and chemo next Tuesday. I hate going to the office. Oh, the doctors and nurses and other staff are all nice enough. Very nice, in fact. It’s everything else: the smell, the decor, the lighting, the TV in the waiting room that’s always tuned to The Food Network, the outdated magazines . . . everything.
You know how you feel about certain foods after you get sick from eating them? Just the mention of them turns your stomach for months, sometimes years. That’s the way it is with the cancer center. I drive right by it every day on my way to work and even avoid looking at it.
Pathetic, I know. No, really, I can admit it. It is.
Thing is, I know how I feel following every chemo treatment and it’s that whole association thing. Cancer center = feeling sick and tired.
What got me thinking about all this is a verse in Romans (8:31) that says If God be for us, who can be against us?
Now, you may be asking how that verse leads me to think about how much I dislike going to the cancer center (even the name irks me). And that would be a great question and one for which I have no logical answer. It’s just how my crazy mind works these days.
But regardless of the route I took to come to this thinking, the verse stands as one that needs to be remembered and meditated on. Really, think about it (speaking to self now), I have the God of all creation, the God of the universe, the all-powerful, all-knowing God of everything on my side. And not just on my side, but by my side, holding my hand, wrapping me in His arms of love and comfort.
Now, if God is on and by my side, who or what can be against me? Yes, cancer and the treatment for it may rob me of my joy temporarily, may steal my health for a time, and my instill fear and trembling in me for a moment, but it can’t permanently do anything to me. The time is coming when treatments will be a thing of the past. Sooner or later, here or There, I’ll be cancer-free. The battle isn’t over but the score is already settled because God never loses. You–I–can take that to the bank.
God is for me. That’s something, isn’t it? Yes, it is.