Encounter with a Mack Truck
Had chemo yesterday. I felt okay until about 5:00 last night then the proverbial Mack truck sideswiped me, spun me around, and left me in the gutter. Wow. This morning isn’t much better. I called off work today, which I hate to do, but I really need a day to rest and regroup.
My oncologist and I had an interesting and profitable talk yesterday about the feasibility of continuing with the Oxaliplatin infusion chemo. Yesterday was dose 9 of 12 and the neuropathies in my feet, hands, and tongue have worsened, which is something they want to avoid because it can be permanent damage.
So the question was posed: Do I really need to finish out the final three doses of infusion therapy or would I be safe finishing out on the Xeloda (oral chemo) alone. He seems to think I’d be okay finishing out on the pill alone. He ran down the numbers and studies and what the “textbooks” say then said his gut feeling is that I’m “cancer free”. He also stated that 75% of the benefits of chemo come from the Xeloda anyway.
So the plan is this, I’ve scheduled one more infusion chemo treatment. I see the oncologist right before that and we will evaluate where I am with the neuropathies and other side effects and talk about whether we want to try one more session or just cancel it and go with the pill for the remainder three treatments.
I don’t like things being up in the air like this, I’m the kind of person that likes to know where we’re going and when we’ll get there. But, as the saying goes, it is what it is.
In the comments for yesterday’s post a fellow blogger who I consider a new friend (one of the many blessings this cancer has brought) dropped me a verse from Isaiah that lifted my spirits. 26:3-4 says, You will keep in perfect peace him whose mind is steadfast, because he trusts in You. Trust in the LORD forever, for the LORD, the LORD, is the Rock eternal.
Peace can only be found in the Lord. Notice in the last sentence Isaiah mentions “LORD” three times. Think he’s tryint to get a point across?
That’s my challenge. In the midst of all this discomfort and uncertainty to keep my mind fixed on the Lord, my Rock, the only One who can bring true and lasting peace. He has a plan in all this, I know He does, and He is faithful and true and will complete the work He’s started in me. This cancer is a learning experience, a character-builder, a faith-strengthener, a building block.
Note to self: think on this often!