The Thing I Hate Most About Being an Author
People are starting to get their hands on Darkness Follows and, so far, the feedback has all been positive. They love the characters, love the suspense, love the twists and turns.
Which I love to hear.
And hate. Because it makes me so jealous. I know, it’s trite and self-centered. I really do love when a reader loves my book . . . I only wish I could love it in the same way. But I can’t. It’s impossible. I can’t and never will see my stories in the same way a reader sees them during the the first read.
It’s the curse of being an author. I can never experience my books the same way others do. I’m not surprised by the twists and turns because I put them there. The characters don’t intrigue me because I created them, built them from the ground up. The suspense isn’t suspenseful because I see it coming.
All this makes it very difficult for an author to be objective about his/her own story. I see it in a totally different light and from a drastically different perspective than you, the reader, do. I see it from the inside out.
It’s kind of like you’re children. Did you ever wish you could meet your children for the first time and see them the way a stranger might see them? Experience their sense of humor for the first time? Enjoy their interesting stories anew?
Sometimes I wish I could suffer temporary amnesia and read my stories for the first time, when it’s all so new and the anticipation and suspense is fresh and riveting. I wish I could meet my characters as if they were strangers and this our first introduction.
I wish I could see my story the way you do.